I couldn't tell you how many times I thought I was over the old version of myself. I used to smoke a lot, eat a lot and I found that during hard times, it was so easy to go back to my escapist ways.
I thought I'd put the old Ebony down to rest for good, but now I understand I have to make a decision daily to be the better version of myself. Everyday I have to step into my power and use it to say no to the things that do not serve me. It's not that they're not going to be there anymore, oh and the temptation definitely doesn't go away, but it's up to me to align my actions with the me I'm aiming to become.
I know over time saying no will get easier, but to get there I have to put it in practice and slowly the version of me with no self control, no boundaries and in honestly less self love than I think will slowly, slowly drift away as my authentic self starts to show up daily.
I'm glad I have this realisation and I know it's easier said than done, but I also know I'm not alone in this. There are many people finding it hard to drop bad habits, but there are also many people who were able to do it and choose their wellbeing and happiness over the temporary satisfaction which let's me know it is more than possible. Just that hope alone is enough to make me try so here we go!
I've come a long way from where I once was, but it's a never ending journey and I'm dedicating myself to developing and growing every day.
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